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Fri Jun 27, 2008, 4:02 AM
Ok, so here are some things that anoy me,

Children who walk ‘avondvierdaagse’ (some marathon for kids in the netherlands) and then suddenly dress up in orange (colour of holland since it’s introduced by footballfreaks) because the E.K. will start in four days and it has nothing to do with what they are doing.
Then they block all of the village most importaint ways to get to the station.. then what’s even more fuckedup are their parents, and théir parents who did not teach them to walk on the pavement. Then their barking dogs (they all have one).
When you go to the supermarket to buy your stuff, you get an orange lion with big furry orange hair with it, without any questionning if you would like to have that with the stuff you just bought. There are also bigscreen lcd tv’s in the supermarket with commercials of their own products on it.. isn’t that a little too much? I mean you allready ARE in the super market to buy shit and you allready hear the sale messages they tell you from the supermarketradio. Some people have to say that the house they see is pretty by every house they pass by. A lot of people who eat in restaurants can’t find the toilets while there are three boards to guide the way.. one on the stairs (with an arrow in the direction to walk), one on the wall next to the toiletdoor (allso with an arrow) and the final one is placed above the entrence of the toilets.. how could it be more fucking obvious? Still people check the door of the cleaners place, the kitchen, the stairs to the basement and somtimes even walk to the first floor before they accually walk throuh the door they were ment to.
One more really stupid orange thing, at the middle of the market place there is a fontain.
Yes indeed, the bastards added some coloured liquid sothat the fontain is orange.
Still i sit there trying to look at the water instead of the orange.. funny enough the fontain doesn’t seem to care about what colour of water it’s producing. It’s just creating flow after flow, the water is just flowing, flowing, flowing. It doesn’t give a shit what it looks like, it doesn’t give a shit about the screaming children and the barking dogs.

So i finally come home and start to make some breakfast, i force myself to eat because i did barely do that for three days and turn on the tv. This way i can eat without noticing so i might eat faster then yesterdays half croissant in fifteen minutes.
Tv is on.. i don’t wanna let my mood turn down from watching the problems of some pope..
[zap]
You can now look like you’ve been on holliday and fight against seven sympthomes of growing old at the same time!
[zap]
When you grow older your skin gets more empty, use this shit and it will fill up your skinn so that it looks nice and tight.. (maybe the human body grows old because that’s natural, maybe the human body loses fat becaus it’s building off to death and doesn’t need that extra weight while it’s getting weaker and more fragile. Maybe i don’t want to have a face like that prick from tokio hotel when i reached the age of sixty and finally have my pokerface, maybe i don’t want all the girls in the bus to look like Kate Beckinsale. Maybe i don’t want to go to bed with some hot chick and fiend out that it’s my neighbours grandma next morning. You don’t go around pumping up babys with cilicones to make them look musceled do you?)
[zaaaaaaaaaaap...........]
litterally: This cream works AGAINST NATURAL WAYS,COMMA,THIS IS HANDY!! This way you don't have to pull out your hair as much as before.
(animation of a chemical reaction in wich the hair grows back smaller and smaller).
[zaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap]
‘Yes, we are so happy with our new car. We bought it with rent money (buying something with a rent??!!) from lenen.nl. it has so much room and comfort and the children fit in and blablablah.. ‘Dad! where is the ball?’ (American familly walks to the beach, father with big non-gelant smile, blue eyes blonde backcombed hair and trimmed beard makes stupid move and taps hand to forehead) ‘Ghehe, well i guess daddy left it in the car..’
(voice-over: ‘Well that's silly dad, mayby you forgot beacause there’s so much space in your new car haha). AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!
[turn off]
Yet again they succeded in ruining my good mood.

Getting more and more depressed i was so full of ideas that i couldn’t make up my mind. Started to doubt about every shitty little scetch so much that i didn’t even know what to make anymore, even in real life i can’t make up a meaning about most things because i keep seeing everything from both sides and keep asking myself al the if, if, questions. Getting insertain i get de-motivated and non-productive aswell with painting as with the day to day stuff like getting out of bed, eating or doing anything at all. Got so insertain that i even started to care what i wear and how i act in public, didn’t even want to look at people anymore because i was too paranoid. Lately found out a little professional help wouldn’t be out of order here.

If you finisched this, you are a very brave reader and you probebly found it a little interesting.

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I didn't found it a little interesting, it was higly amusing lol
Tv can be horrible, I usually just watch cartoons because they're retarded and you EXPECT them to be. That way it doesn't get me upset
but yes... tv is horrible and everyone seems to be brainwashed so much that they don't even notice it.

The orange in holland is killing me too (with laughter that is) it always has. But I can imagine how similar to hell it must be when you actually live there

People are annoying, they always will be untill you killed them haha KILL THEM ALL
oh and one last thing: professional help for depressions is sooooo overrated. Psychology is stupid, it's suppost to help crazy people but no one knows what they're doing. I've had psychology in school for years. All those losers contradict each other.
If you go to some crazy doctor to find out what's wrong with you, an other one will say the exact opposite for sure.
also; they eat your money for making you hear their lies!

paranoia... I know exactly what you're saying
horrible

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haha thank you for understanding, i lately puke orange. i'm happy "we" lost against Russia.
people allways say they're sorry for somthing they couldn't help. well in this case i really mean sorry for those bastards to invate your country. funny how you can crate so much hate for your own country while it really doesn't mean anything. i really hoped for an holland-Germany or holland-Turky final so that they would beat the shit out of eachother.. didn't happen.

yea i know what you mean with the professional help thing, i needed help with my motirc because i'm disabled with a skinn illness that makes my skin really fragile. i learned to walk and clib and shit but in a much longer and different way than others, so that guy used to help me with my hand motoric.. well i'm not gonna tell the whole story because it would be an endless hate athem but it comes down to this: he asked questions about my neigberhood and if i played outside, then he let me squeeze some balls to see the muscle strength (it has nothing to do with that but with my skinn) then i came back 5 weeks and he didn't do shit but kept on saying he was the fucking expert while he didn't read the files about my illness and claimed he knew it all. than after 10 months orso i decided to give him the finger because my mom had made all the decisions and came up with all the ideas and he just agreed. all that was during 1st class when i was at a school for disabled people. when i got out there and finisched 3d&4th year in graphic design and than did mbo illustration on regular schools they finnaly realized i could ecxually take care of myself.
so after that shit i swore to myself that i would never ever fall in the hads of that kind of people.

i know people talk to eachother and i know that everyone says something else but that's exactly the same in the outside world were all my friends family enemy's and other people say different things.
i just need to save the sane parts of my brain, i need a little truth. and i thought i'd go to someone who's somehowe schooled to put his strong evolved thoughts over to deperate people to make them believe some kind of truth and feel good. if it doesn't work i will have to kill the person and the nest it came from.
or maybe just kill myself sothat the world will die.

back in the day's i used to watch a shitload of cartoons, lately watching 'fairly odd parents'.
there's a lot of grow up humor :)

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Rot in your own way.
I don't really hate Belgium. Ok I do but I just hate the entire human race but still for the same reason as you hate holland. Every country has those absolutely idiotic and annoying habbits. They're all retards and the world would be sooo much better off without humans.
I know I should hate myself for being human too but on the other hand, I seem to be one of the only ones left that uses the brains I was born with.

and... well that sucks. I hate doctors sooo much!! I have really bad joints and NOT A SINGLE doctor even believed I was in pain enough to make a scan! when one of them did, there ended up being something really wrong after all. Same goes for psychologists, I was always sent to one in school. She thought she had me all figured out because my teacher told her what I had done. I still don't quite understand what I always did wrong lol. Arhg those HORRIBLE conversations 'what are you feeling now?' 'Nothing' 'come on, you always feel something. Be honest'
WELL FUCK YOU go back to school and actually PAY ATTENTION in stead of screwing your teacher to pass your exams.
Professionals piss me off
I am gratefull for the doctor that made me breath again last summer though. But there had to be a few doctors that messed up first haha

Fairly odd parents is AMAZING!!
yeah, grown up humor, a lot of cartoons have that. Cartoons aren't for children at all (unless they are waaay too boring and just as retarded as the children that should be watching it)
And I'm not even talking about South Park! I swear there are lots of jokes in cartoons, even in Spongebob, that those horrible kids just can't understand.
Kids should be banned from tv untill they are smart enough

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Come to me, my little flower. And let me taste your nectar.

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